I promise I’ll visit soon!

Sometime during summer 2004 (or even before), I received the best gift of my life. Our neighbour Bernard gave me what he promised to be the most valuable lesson ever in life… And indeed it was!

He gave me something that puts a smile on my face on a bad day…

Something that lifts me up when everything else is pulling me down…

Something that pushes me to hold on…

Something that I still use everyday in my life. He gave me a poster for the poem “If” by Rudyard Kipling. He told me that if I can live by the poem, I would have better chances at getting it in life.

At first the poem looked interesting, it sounded strong, powerful, but I couldn’t feel how deep it was until I was that man (woman) that Rudyard was talking to…

Until all around me started loosing their heads,
Until I was tired of waiting,
Tired of being lied to,
Until I watched the things I gave my life to, broken
Until I risked all my winning on one turn of pitch-and -loss…

Then I remembered Bernard’s advice, and found the will that told me “Hold On”…

I used to see Bernard as I was leaving or coming home, he used to invite me to have a coffee with him and his wife, I was always busy and always said “I promise I’ll visit soon”…

But soon wasn’t soon enough! Years passed, I left the neighborhood and every time I passed, I still promised to visit soon…

Bernard got sick and died and I couldn’t even find the time to go to his funeral… Didn’t even find the time to pay condolences to his family…

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I still pass by the neighbourhood, I see his son, and I also promise to visit soon, but will this time be soon enough?!

Soon enough for someone who meant a lot?! Someone who helped, is still helping and will always help me in my life?

I always say that “life is short” but it seems that I am the one that needs to understand how short it really is…

Rest in Peace Bernard, I am sorry I never visited…

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